| So I am planning to start back to work in the mornings next week. Except
for a brief family flu, I continue to feel better daily. My friend Mary asked, on a scale
from 1 to 100 - 100 being 'normal,' how I felt. At that moment, I answered, I felt about a
90. Overall I feel about a 75 to 80. I noticed today I am so focused on 'getting back to normal,' I am ignoring that I still am a cancer patient. I haven't wanted to read about it or listen to tapes. Today I sent away to try to find pen pals that might have similar conditions. Maybe through others' experiences I can find hope and strength. I am searching for good news things that predict my future. When I read the brochure about my tumor, its prognosis sound scary. A hopeful thought, however, is that the statistics cover all ages and all severities. Tonight we are going to a support group meeting called ECAP - something like Exceptional Cancer Patients. I don't know how well I will fit in - and I think this group has a lot to offer. As I get better, I have been thinking less about spirituality and living a life I love. The daily concerns about eating and child care and when to return to work are starting to fill my thoughts. As I write these words, Rabbi Chinn calls me from Columbus to check on me - ironic and very welcome. He visited me in the hospital several times, which I very much appreciated. I plan to work in the mornings next week to transition back. Thur. and Fri. I will be partaking in HamVention fun! A few people have asked if I am bored at home and ready to go back to work. My answer is a resounding NO. I love being at home with few responsibilities and lots of time. I've started to read some of those books I've been meaning to read for a LONG time. C'est la vie. So, that's all for now. As always, THANKS very much for participating in my journey! I'll see most of you soon.... |