I showed a colleague my website and noticed I've not written since November. This is a case of 'no news is good news…'and I have a lot of news to share

• I started back to work at work at YSI as planned in January, ramping up to 25/hr week. I'm doing basic PC support, helpdesk, purchasing, etc.
  
• I continue to care for our kids while Abi finishes her first year of medical school in Athens.
  
• My movement, speech, thinking, and driving have all dramatically improved.
  
• At the end of June, I will talk to Dr. Moore about the possibility of reducing some of the anti-seizure medicine I still take.

So what now? My left-side weakness - esp. my hand - is a constant reminder of what is not healed. Bilateral opposition also confuses me (swinging my arms or legs in opposite directions). Running up stairs leaves me flat-footed on the left.

All of this leaves me wondering are these 'permanent' deficits? Or 'if I'd just immobilize my right arm, my left arm would get better…' Which is it?

In other word - if I would just buck up and do the exercises, I'd get better.

I read something that I wrote 15 years ago at seminar - I'm sure you've heard it:

Expectations lead to disappointment. Possibility leads to possibility.

So, I am still struggling with living in the past, through not having seizures has allowed me to take in much more of the present.

The eye doctor I still 'see' says we narrow our field of vision when we are stressed. With seizures, I spent most of my time trying to limit the visual input. He's been working with me to expand my allowable input - using glasses and physical training. I have benefited. It's subtle, but noticeable.

I've done some computer consulting on the side, which has been much more interesting than my 'job' because I get to do the entire project -not just one function on the team. I like being a generalist. Always have. But alas, there is always a need for health insurance.

I have not written before now because 1) I have not been moved to write and 2) I have been very busy with work, the kids, the house, etc.

Zachary and Hana are great. They had a good and busy year, though they missed their mom. They just finished school and are now in St. Louis with their grandparents - giving me time to write this.

A friend wrote asking about a summer reading list. Who has time to read? But now that Abi will be home for the summer, I'd like to find a balance for myself. Then maybe I'll read some of those great books, or maybe take walks with friends and family in the Glenn.

So that what's up with me. Took me three days to get this done. One day to write it two days to type it and focus on sending it, but that about the pace of my life now.

Be well -

Love,

Dan