I'm running. I'm playing soccer. I'm helping with Zachary's
baseball games. Overall, my energy is much better as is my
comfort. My life continues on a 1% positive grade.
Today I'm reflective. One year ago I had 4 seizures in one
day. I was a rock pushed off a ledge in a free-fall. My
comfort, health, courage sank quickly. It's taken a year to
get back to my current comfort and activity.
I often think, what if....if I'd gotten better medical care
sooner. If my seizures did not return (reflecting - I had lots
of warnings I ignored). If none of this ever happened.....
Anyway - where I am today: I keep changing my meds and that
continues to help. I'm now up to 600 mg/day of the 'newest'
drug - lamictol. Still working part-time. Still doing
biofeedback after lunch and sleeping for an hour or so. I've
been having seizures about once a month (though I had two in
May closer together).
The difference is in the first paragraph. I'm out; I'm active -
that feels great!
Playing adult soccer is the first thing that has really
motivated me into action. To have fun, it helps to be in better
shape. I was excercising before, but this was something to
shoot for....
I've also noticed I like working with my hands - something I
don't do much, esp. at work. I like doing things that don't
take too much thought (ironic). Do no ponder.
So, where am I 1 year later? Greatly appreciative of Abi.
Greatly appreciative of our families. Very appreciative of the
leaders at YSI for being flexible and understanding. Very
thankful for my friends and community. And in an open
place...like 'what now?'
As my dad has said, '"What's one year later? It's just 365 days
later." Well, may this 1 year mark pass uneventfully!
Thank you.
Have a great holiday!
With Love,
Dan